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When I began this blog, I was determined to chronicle my experience as a teacher so that I could share it with my friends and family, and one day look back on it and remember the good and bad times. However, my weekly updates have been few and far between this year, mostly because I'm not as motivated to blog on the weekends. I've been much more time-efficient at least in these first few weeks, and the transfer to a block schedule at school has left my weekends with a surprising amount of free/me time. As was my custom last year, I would post on Sunday night after a long spent afternoon and evening of grading papers. Tonight was really the first Sunday night that I've used to grade papers, and that's mostly because I planned on doing it while watching the Emmy's. To get to my actual point, my blog posts have become somewhat of a burden because I spend quite a deal of time thinking about the week and what I want to say. I still type the post in one sitting, so there isn't a great deal of revision in the process, but there is a certain amount of thought put into what and how much information I put into each post. Ultimately, it leads to me spending an hour or two sitting and contemplating, and some days it seems like more of a burden than a pleasure. I'm hoping to start updating two times a week with smaller posts so that my blog never does reach that point where I "just don't feel like posting," because that's close to my sentiments right now. For now, the goals are Wednesdays and weekends.

Let's see if it sticks.

Visual Media Club
This year, I started a Wednesday night club dedicated to all types of visual media, from Photography to digital imaging, videography, and stop-motion animation. So far we've met twice and I spent the first day giving my group members the basics for composition, safety, and guidelines. This week, we started filming so that the students could begin practicing a few skills. I have the students using 3 of the 7 digital video cameras (I received them from grant money) to film a cheesy fight scene. I'm not expecting too much in terms of quality, and we're not even worrying about lighting, but the kids are LOVING it. We only filmed the intro to the fight, and we'll film the second part this Wednesday, but the students are taking to my suggestions and teachings like fish to water. It's so refreshing to be able to get kids out and doing things that I know they are interested in and I feel I'm well qualified to teach them.

To be honest, I've always somewhat questioned my ability to teach English. I've done well in all of my English classes, had a perfect score on my ACT Reading section, and easily passed the pedagogy and content tests Texas requires of me before I could receive my teaching certificate. However, I didn't major in English. I majored in Media Convergence Journalism, where I spent more time writing solely to support my video and audio elements.

Could I really teach English? I guess at this point, I've fooled enough people that I'm starting to believe it. I still feel like I have more to offer my students in Visual Media Club than my students in my actual English class, but I hope to blur those lines this year.

What a difference a year makes
I'm really surprised at how much different this year is compared to last year. I'm not stressed, I have free time at night, and my students seem like they're from a different world. Instead of having one Pre-AP class, I have two, and I only teach three classes a day, for 90 minutes each. I'm not going to say that my students are smarter this year, as I had very, very talented students last year. I do, however, think that I'm using and providing instruction for these students in a much more confident and concise manner. Having 90 minutes of class allows me to spend more time developing lessons and making sure my students understand the concept. Instead of worrying about students not fully understanding a concept and then forgetting what little they learned by the next day, I can confidently end a class and know that my students have mastered the day's objectives. I've stressed homework more, and have already received more completed homework assignments than I think I got all last year combined.

I really can't downplay how vastly different the start of this year is compared to last year. It feels like I'm teaching on the same level as the end of last year when I knew my students and already developed a year of trust with them. Some of my students are brothers, sisters, and cousins of my students from last year, so I already have a connection with them. They seem more trusting this year, and I'm sure that has a lot to do with the fact that I probably seem like a stronger, wiser teacher who cares about what he does. Confidence and experience as a teacher seem to be two of the biggest factors in becoming a better teacher, and now I have at least a year under my belt. I've already left school several days looking forward to the next day and the next big thing, rather than worrying about what I'll teach or all the problems from the day.

Sad News
Several of my students from last year did not pass on to 10th grade, and a few of them are back in my class. The ones that are in my class again are showing a greater sense of responsibility and are actually trying in class, something that took nearly a year to get out of them. It's great to see them actually achieving in my class and contributing to class discussions rather than sitting in their desks refusing to do work.

On to the actual sad news - the students that I don't have in class again have been showing up on the in-school suspension rosters... with increasing consistency. I know that in the valley, most students that drop out don't make it past 9th grade, and I wouldn't like to see my students contribute to those numbers. Last year, I was a little soft on discipline, which worked for me since students eventually came around and did work, or they screwed up in other classes and were expelled. I addressed issues as they came up in class, but I tried not to send my students to in-school suspension, relying more on pulling students out of class for stern talking-to's. I hope that my old students will turn around, pass to 10th grade, and eventually graduate. But I have to say - there's a sick feeling churning in my gut, and I can't do much more now than cross my fingers and hope one of my fellow teachers connects with them.